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Well my cuzz moved to wva to be with his lover so his brother took over paying for the cell phone. Well this brother took over the payment so he put me on pageplus its pretty new it runs of the verizen network so its pretty fast. The phone he got me is a motorola Q it runs WM5 swmartphone so I like. He wants To get Brian the same thing thats why he put me on first.

Well lastnight was a bummer. Me and my cuzins went out to a halloween party.We did not stay long some stuff went wrong with my cell.Well boost mobile told me I got to use my boost mobile phone or else. I like my blackberry7520 it might not have a cam but its better I think than my i465 clutch. So for now I guess that I should use my boost phone.
Writtin with the i465 clutch

I have this friend on the web we been friends for long time so of course I trusted him.He wanted a boostberry phone since he is on boost mobile. A boostberry is a blackberry phone situp to work on boost. I have made a few boostberry phones. The deal was I send the phone and the same day he would send the money. Well today I found out that he did not send the money yet he ask me if I wanted him to send it. Yes I told him. Well I know the phone worked I used it for a week trial but this guy cant seem to get it to work even going in dealtail what to do. This is last time I will ever trust someone.

One day my cousin gave me a blackberry 7520. Well there was a way to convert that blackberry into a boost berry so I got all the stuff I needed and then I followed step by step o what to do. Well I was having some trouble with this So I gave up the phone I have now was good enough Till few days later I went out with the guys my 2 cousins and we went to the place that sold the phone the store keep wanted to take back off he pressed to hard and broke battery door?Well I thought I was out of a phone ummmmmmm no I started workin on the blackberry got it all worked out. Well call monday to check on new batterydoor

I was to have my stresstest done today but they moved it to tomarrow and did not tell me.I fasted I did not have my morning coffee and They did not bother telling me this!!!!!!!! I spent $40.00 $20.00 to and $20.00 home and I got to do this tomarrow? I am fuckin pissed.

well a while back my brother called. I should of known something was wrong then he called wanting money I should of known better. healthwise I am falling apart I willnot even bother to list them. But I do worry over them I know I shouldnot but its hard.

well today I went to get my new glasses thought I be saving money by walking downtownits not that far. that walk sent my surgar falling along with me. i never do that again. Ya I be happy I am doing this update from my phone.

Back in Wellsburg Wva that is someting I hardly had and when I did get a friend The guy that I lived with would piss them off and they stop hangin with me. I am so happy that I made the move to Cleveland. I have wanderfull friends and I have someone that loves me alot. It may not seem alot but to me it means a lot and I feel very honored to have friends and to have a cubby that loves me. To me that means more to me that a birthday present or any gift.

I get these little flashes of my past every now and then and like some they are sad. Today memory from my past. I worked for a store in my home town I was there janitor for many years. This one time I was working the floor when this old lady was puttin a bunch of catfood in her buggy I said to her that she must have alot of cats She told me that there not for cats she has none but all this catfood was for her. knowone should have to eat catfood. I mean in wellsburg my home town there is a foodbank thats sit up for the needy well this old lady she could not get welfare or she could not get help from the food bank for one stupid reason and I think this is where the sysetem is fucked up at. Her late husband made sure that she have some money he had bonds and a sizeable lifeinsurance. Well wellfare and the foodbank counted that as income and because of that she could not get foodstamps. so she could not get help till that money was depleted now that really sucked.

Bad news, since last week my cell phone would get this white screen and it freeze up on me. I have been on the phone with virgin moble tech Ya they have a Tech dept so I think They gave me a bunch of things to try and they dont work. I have been pulling battery out and waiting to put it in then it works but this week I have been having to do this 4 times in a day. So I called VM and they told me there was nothin else to do that the phone is on its last legs. GOOD NEWS is thart the phone is still under warrinty for a year and that I can go to rad shack and do a trade where I give them my phone and they give me a new phone No charge I just got to take my phone in so I can make the trade the catch is the phone has to be for up to 100.00 no less and if I baught any ringtones or what ever that they will reinburst me so cool. But we will see.

For years I had this website that was my cam homepage. I cam on that site alot till I went to the site that host my cam and as soon as I logged in There was this big message stating that may 1 2009 that the site will close. And I got NO email or any kind of notice that the site will be closing. In a way that pisses me off but on other side I really dont care I have another site to cam on.

will yesterday I went out with a few friends one of them got cubby and I on his virgin mobil account. Anyway yesterday my freind decided to get cubby a better phone a wildcard. When I came home and gave it to cubby he got unglued.He was feeling down for a week I think giving him the phone made his day. He could not beleive that someone could be nice to him.Like I told him befor he is part of my family now. Cubby still cant beleive it.:-D ;-[

I found out today that the guy I lived with is now moving to cleveland. I am not to happy about that. I do not care to see the likes of him. I am writing this from my cellphone. Way cool.

I have 2 brothers and one sister. A while back my younger brother called me and its been 8 years since we last spoke. He asked me all these questions and told me we will keep chattin send me pix of there kids. Well thats been over 2 weeks now. My older brother he only calls when he needs something and my sister well the last time we chatted was when I had my heart attacck and she only wanted to know how things are and she dont want to talk so here I am and as far as things go my family is dead to me. My only family Is the friends I made here and Brian I have a couion and he helps me outwith what he can. But the family I have in Wva are dead to me.

Well a while back my brother Mark got hold of me. We spent a hour on the phone he asked all these questions about my life and he said he was going to send me some pics of his kids and such So I waited till 2 weeks passed and I was starting to get pissed so I sent him a email asking him whats going on how I thought after 8 long years that he wanted to start talking and that again. I do not like being in the dark. So a week has passed since I emailed him and there has been No response. So like my sister I wrote him off Mark and my sister do not exist in my eyes. I sometimes hear from my Brother Kevin. He may be a asshole but at least he talks to me. The last time my sister called was to see how I was doing when I had a heart attact and again awhile back ago. But after that I dont hear shit from her or from her daughter so I live my life and I use to feel a emptyness because I wish I could have that closeness with my brother or sister but through the years I told myself frack them I mean I dont need them and my life is better off without them. So bottom line if they dont want to talk to me then the hell with them who needs them? I surely dont I dont even miss them.

To my surprise on Friday I went to make a call and my cell did not work I called the guy that put me on his family plan and he told methat he switched over to another cell company and he was having my number ported over to there. Well I got pissed he did not even ask me about switching over. So I went to radshack where he got them and the women looked at me and said she told the guy that got the phones that it take 7 to 10 days to port over she would not call the cell people or anything so that got me more pissed so I went to another radshack to get help. The guy I talked to told me that the women that sold the phones to my cousin  did not even actavate them. Well the guy at the radshack I went to the 2 time called his boss and told him the name of the woman that sold them and that she did not help me or anything. So this guys boss told me that he was going to take action against this women since she was a store mang. In my eyes this women should be fired I mean she was a store mang and she did not even help. and saturday I forgot to taske my crazy pill so I was still pissed and in a I dont care mood.

Last night I went to bed at 2:00am Then I ended up getting out of bed at 3:30am because my legs started to act up. It was my restless legs. My legs started to act up so bad that I started to cry and cuss. I tried to keep it down because I did not want to wake cubby. I cant remember when my legs where so bad like lastnight. I just hope they do not act up like that any more. I just cannot handle my legs acting up like lastnight again.

Well for a few months now I been writing back and forth to this guy that ownes this website and I go on there asll the time. Let me start from the beginning. This site has been going all to hell alot of stuff kept going bad. So I got tired of all this so I googled the site and found out the guy that ownes the site and he had a email addy to be reached at. So I wrote him told him everything thats wrong and he did not know all that was wrong as he said to be truethfull he made the site and forgot all about it. So he worked on the problems on the site got them fix. So after all that done we started talking about the sites future and I told him that this site is ok but he is losing members to another site so I told him he really needs to beef up the site. So he wanted to know my ideas on it and I told him what I do to bring back members and such. Now this is a free site and has a limited income so now all that is talked out and now he plans on using my ideas to revamp the whole site and he is using my ideas. Now this just makes my day. I mean Hell I do not have much schooling very limited do not know much and here he is using my ideas not a single Idea has gone not used. and to top that off since he cannot be checking on the site all the time he gave me control over what content is or isnot allowed on the site and if anyone has a gripe on the site if it does not deal with a tech issue then I am to handle it. Now to top that off this guy that I know wrote in to the owner of the site telling him if there was anything he can do on the site to let him know. Now this guy know HTML and makes his owne webpages. Now this guy really knows what he is doing but the owner of the site wrote to tell me this. He said me and him been talking about the site for some time and these are my ideas so its only fair that I handle some things. Now all this makes me feel good and it sure is a self essteem boost. So is it wrong for me to feel so good about myself? Its like some people dont take me seriouse but I have someone willing to listin to what I got to say.Is that wrong?

Well  June 20th I had  surgery on my right big toe it was no big beal I even forgot what they had to do. I still cannot wear a shoe so I had to get a larger size shoe just so I can get around. Well now it seems that I did something to that toe maybe but now my toe has been hurtin like hell . Sometime I  can feel the pin in my toe

I miss mom and dad.  I was not there when dad died mom did not want me to see dad like that she said I had to many probles to deal with. Then 2 years later mom died she just gave up on life when dad died. Again I was not there for her. If I was there she be takin care of instead of takin advantage of. What did I do instead of facing my responseability? I ran away and moved to cleveland.Oh It made my life hell lot easer and I realy found someone that cares about me and loves me and I love him. But I was selfish I did not stay and deal with things. If I stayed mom woulf of still died but she live a little longer.. I know I should not think like this but around this time I really miss mom and dad. Mom and I never got along we allways ended up in a shouting match But still she was my mom and only I had the right to call here  a one legged bitch. But yet I still loved here.